Jocelyn’s Journey: A New Opportunity

September 24, 2024

We return from three weeks in France and are totally exhausted and feeling sick, both of us.   Two weeks goes by.  I start feeling better, but Jocelyn does not.  Strangely, her abdomen seems to be swelling.  It is especially strange because over the last year she has lost lots of weight.  Her GP sends her for a CT scan and when that is done, the technician says,  “You need to go to the ER right now.”   She calls me and we meet at the hospital.

We have no idea what is going on, and we spend six hours in the ER.  Finally, the admit us and we spend more time “in the back.”   Eventually, we learn that she has lots of fluid built up inside and needs to have that drained.  Again, we don’t know what is going on.  They tell us that the people who do this procedure don’t do it on the weekends. It is Friday, October 18.   We hang around in the ER till about 10 pm, and with nothing urgent happening, I go home.

When I return the next day, I learn that the “draining” will indeed take place on Saturday morning.   They drain 7 liters of fluid from her.  We still don’t know what this is about, but the scuttlebut around the ER is that this fluid buildup is often a symptom of cancer.  We just wait.

Slowly, things move forward with multiple incidents of specimens not being submitted to pathology or results not being sent to the doctor or other stupid stuff that I guess is just normal for hospital operations.  The fluid was supposed to be submitted to pathology but that did not happen.  Days later when it does happen, the tests are “inconclusive.”   Now the doctor wants a laproscopic biopsy.    Naturally, that procedure is scheduled for her birthday, Thursday, November 7.

They tell us to be at the hospital at 430 pm for a procedure at 630 pm.  We get a call at 3 pm and they tell us to head over now.   So we get there early only to wait around till 7 pm.  She goes in for the biopsy around 730 pm and comes out around 830 pm.   She undergoes full anesthesia, so she has to go to recovery for another hour.  When she comes out around 930 pm ON HER BIRTHDAY, she can hardly walk, but I get her home and resting.  Finally after another day, she recovers from the anesthesia.  After a couple of days, I learn that they drained another 3 liters our of her.

We then start waiting. Nothing can be done till a definitive diagnosis occurs.

(BnJ 1973)

Friday, November 15, 2024

Eight days after the biopsy, we realize that today is the day.  We finally got the diagnosis:   Stage 3 ovarian cancer.

First of three chemo treatments on Nov 20.  That will be an all day affair.

 

Wednesday, November 20, 2024

Here she is, thesilverfox, with the brightest smile ever seen right in the middle of her first chemo therapy session, accompanied by our son, Nicholas.  There were no adverse reactions throughout the whole treatment and it is now four hours after finishing and she is looking and feeling great.  I know there is tomorrow, but for now, we are calling this a “pick six,”   or a “fumble recovery to touchdown,”  or “punt return for TD”   or whatever sports metaphor works for you.  We had a victory today!

We came home; she helped line up my trailers so I could get ready for a gig tomorrow, and then we heated up some great food from good friends, Mike and Jacque Richey  (THAN KS) and we had dinner.

We are simply affirming,

“Jocelyn’s powerful divine spirit is right now flowing through her body and organs, removing and shrinking unwanted cells and restoring vitality and vigor.  That is the truth!”

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November 21, 2024

Prayers?    There are as many different methods to pray as there are people on the planet.  And you know what?  They are all good.  Many of you have offered truly heartfelt comments, written effectively.

However, we all have preferences and Jocelyn and I have been a part of the Unity School of Christianity for over 30 years.   We recently created a very special affirmation (prayer) that she would like you to use when thinking about her or posting in the blog or in your own pages.  For those of you familiar with Unity and Charles Fillmore, you will recognize how we modified his well-known prayer, “I fairly sizzle….”

“Jocelyn fairly sizzles with zeal and enthusiasm and springs forth with a mighty faith to accept the extraordinary and complete healing and renewed vitality that is coming her way today.”

bnj emphasizing the butterfly tattoo and great legs! 2023

 

Sunday, November 24, 2024

Chemo comes home to roost.

The bathroom remodel.

Apologies and protocols,  a visit from Mesa Fire/Medical, and more.

wedding day, 3 25 72

Lots of details today, so hang on tight

First, I want to apologize for not responding to some of you who have sent messages directly to me.   I just can’t respond.   Thesilverfox sometimes requires constant attention, depending on the day.  In the middle of this, I am preparing for 10 performances in December and 3 rehearsals which involve a staff of nine with different musicians having responsibilities on different events.  And of course there is the bathroom remodel.  More on that later. Please accept my apologies and watch your email for a notice of the next update.  If you don’t get an email, then I need you to send yours to me through email, not text.  Thanks

Second, over the last two years we have been talking with our daughter in law, Jennifer, about remodeling our bathrooms.  A few months back, we settled on a plan to do only one remodel.   Work began to find and schedule various contractors for demolition, electrical, plumbing, tile, paint, and all that stuff.   Well, as they say, it is all in the timing.   The contractors all came together at the same time as the fox and I went to the emergency room.

(the original “leg shot” taken inadvertently when I graduated UNO, May 1974)

So as she came home after that first visit, the team arrived and demolished the bath room.   Things are moving along wonderfully, but this job means that there is lots of noise, dirt, and intrusion into our lives at the SAME TIME as we head down this amazing journey.   We have two other bathrooms so we are just fine, but the remodel is a challenging addition to an already challenging situation.

Third: We had a perfect day on Nov 20, the first chemo session, but by Friday Nov 22, the pesky annoyances can home to roost.  Jocelyn developed severe abdominal and joint pain, making her very uncomfortable.  But we are thankful for no nausea.  Friday and Saturday were challenging days.

Fourth: 

Nicholas, our younger son, became a firefighter several years ago with MESA FIRE/MEDICAL.   It is hard for me to describe this experience.   These people are amazing.  They came by the house yesterday just to check on thefox.   I chatted with them about cancer and learned the captain is currently undergoing “maintenance chemo.”  He shared lots of info.  But the amazing thing is simply there presence.
They exude love and concern and strength.  As I looked into their faces, I felt totally protected, respected, and cared for.  If I fell down, they would be there to pick me up.  I just don’t know where I felt this before.  And yesterday’s visit was not the first.  It has happened many times.   Any time I visit Nick at the station, I get treated with the utmost enthusiasm and respect.  One night, Nick called and said he would be dropping by soon.
I went out front and saw the ladder truck turn the corner.  The engineer turned on every single light.  They lt up the neighborhood as the drove to our house.  I later learned that this was a brand new truck on which they had just taken delivery.  I was the first to see it!!!!   It was so much fun.
And I am so proud of Nicholas for his dedication to excellence that he has displayed in this job.  He is very well respected.  The Fox and I are so proud of him for this.
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Sunday December 1, 2024

BnJ 11 28 24

Pain and more pain

Rashes and subcutaneous bleeding

Good days and bad days

Thanksgiving, family, and the beauty of Arizona

Christmas tree, belly laughing, and a bike ride with the little grandson

We have moved on past the first chemo treatment on November 20.  And many of the very unpleasant predictions are coming true:  great fatigue, abdominal pain, severe joint pain.  Somehow she has dodged any battle with nausea, but in the last 5 days we have been visit by a total body rash, subcutaneous bleeding around the ankles, and severe joint pain.   Somehow in the midst of all this, she rallied for a fabulous Thanksgiving with our entire Arizona family.

Let’s go back to last Sunday, November 24..  The rash begins and very quickly covers almost her entire body.   It creates its own kind of discomfort.  The doctors respond with some kind of oral medication.  Two days go by with no result.  They are shocked.   They quickly discontinue the pills and tell us to apply  basic lotion with triamcinalone cream in equal portions.  Interestingly, I have this cream because my skin is always breaking out.

(from the Tucson era, circa 1977)

Fortunately, this formula works and the rash subsides and she feels strong enough to go to thanksgiving.

Last week I spoke of our son Nicholas and his work as a firefighter and how he is part of our “care team.”

Jacob n Jenn, 2019

 Today, I need to tell you about Jacob (oldest son) and Jenn.  Here is the array of amazing beauty that greeted us at their beautiful home in north central Phoenix.  It is a midcentury domicile…which we love…. but the location is what really is special, as you can see.  We had beautiful weather and delicious dining.  They are an incredible event-planning team, but they are also a critical part of our “care team.”  (more later)    Thanks so very much, Jacob and Jenn.  Thesilverfox and I fell in love with Arizona in 1973, and we never looked back.   You can see why in these pictures taken from their patio.

(Don’t be confused!    I totally agree with the truth: “You can take the boy out of New Orleans, but you can’t take New Orleans out of the boy.”)

So the rash tapered off and we had a great time, but on Friday, the “bad guys” came back.   Her ankles turned almost solid red.  We learned this was not a rash but bleeding below the skin.  And then the join pain started.  We treated this new “redness” with ice and rest, and it has retreated.

On Saturday morning, she felt great again.  She cleaned the kitchen and organized the fridge and freezer, and then on Saturday afternoon, the severe joint pain returned and she was again flat on her back.    Like I said above, “up and down.”

Early in this journey, I asked our oncologist about cannabis products being used to increase appetite, suppress nausea, and relieve pain.  He agreed instantly and recommended we try it if needed.  Well today, when she was so uncomfortable, I ran over to the dispensary and got some RSO oil.   I gave it to her and after about and hour, she rested quietly.

And then we put on Wanda Sykes and laughed our asses off for two and a half hours.  Wow, that is some good medicine.   Her smiling face and hearty belly laugh were the best medicine for me.  I highly recommend that formula:  CANNABIS + WANDA SYKES.  Wanda is irreverent, crude, but always insightful.I really can’t describe how wonderful those two hours were, just laughing our asses off, despite the pain.

We are open to more comedy videos, so please send some links my way.   The laughing is wonderful.

Normally thesilverfox and I assemble and decorate our tree.  It is a major annual project.  That tree has gone through many incarnations: the artificial green tree with elementary school “ornaments,” the real tree, and this most recent one which we started in 2016, the artificial white tree.

Although Friday after Thanksgiving had its real difficulties, Jacob, Jenn, Jamie, and Nicholas came over that afternoon and surprised us by actually putting up OUR tree for us.  That was magical.  My silverfox has always taken great pride in how she decorates for Christmas.  For many years, I have checked lights, climbed ladders, hung special wreaths.   Sometimes, I am referred to as “Sparky Babin,” pictured here.    We are so grateful for our two boys and the wonderful women they have married.

 

“Sparky Babin”

 

                                                                                                                               Nick n Jamie

My final comment for this update is about Barrett, our 7-year-old grandson (Nick and Jamie).  We spent lots of time together for the first five years of his life, but when he started school, he practically disappeared.  That has been hard on both of us.

So our time together is now focused around holidays and school breaks.  About eight months ago, must have been spring break 2024, Barrett and I were riding bikes at a nearby park.  We went to the play / climbing area for something different.  I just let him run wild and don’t provide what a “hovering grandfather” would.   He chose to try the activity in this video.  He got the first rung and as he reached for the second, he fell quite suddenly and hit the ground hard.  He got up, stunned, and chose not to try again.

Now, just a few months later, he did this (video).  He did it completely and perfectly, with no errors, falls, or cheats…..  and then he did it again! (I thought he would be too tired for a second try.  WRONG!!!). This video is his second try.   More amazing things happened on that bike ride, but I’ll have to cover them later.

I add these stories to this blog about a “cancer journey” because I almost can’t believe it is all happening.    The joyous family meal together with games, the trips to the park, the funny movies and standup shows.  But it is all true….. cancer and joy at the same time.   People tell me to stay positive and I share the stories because I think we are on the right track.  For now, remember.

Cherish your spouse, children, and grandchildren

Make plans to be together.

Control and reduce screen time, the great destroyer of family life. 

Express your love with words, gestures, smiles, and gifts. 

Do not assume that they “know how you feel.”  Put it out there.

Peace and love my friends.  

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Sunday, December 8, 2024

How to help

Recent events

 

how to post / comment, my failure to respond to privat emessages—

events of the week

rash finally under control, hair loss increasing, a few good days, port to be installed mon dec 9, allergy testing prioor to Chemo #2 on Dec 17